this summer has been the most difficult summer of my life. hell, 2011 has been the most difficult year. so many things have happened that have tested us. not just “us” as in alyssa and i, but us as in the majority of people i associate with. the phrase “if it’s not one thing, it’s another”, has never fit so well. deaths, health issues, money issues, and god knows what else have tested us. well, we’ve made it to august. it wasn’t easy, but we’ve leaned on each other to get the support we need.
i haven’t seen alyssa in almost three months. i know that compared to some people’s relationships, three months is nothing. whether it be because their significant other is serving overseas for our military, or if they’re in a long distance relationship for some other reason. but my god, when you go from seeing a person every single day and going through life by their side, not only emotionally, but also physically, and then have to go a long period of time without them, it’s tough. really tough.
the worst part? i can only do so much to help her from 13 hours away. i can’t hug her and hold her and tell her that things will be ok. i’m stuck using the phone or webcam. it’s better than nothing, but i need more than that.
it’s ok though, because on monday at 2:10pm, her mother and i will be standing at the bus station in south bend, waiting for her to come running towards us. well, maybe she’ll be too exhausted to run, but you get the idea. and of course, i’ll be there, trying to look all cute and whatever, smiling from ear to ear. her mom will think i’m crazy, but i don’t care! i miss my girl.
we’ve got a week to be together before heading back to reality down here in indy. then, i get two days to get ready for my junior year of college. wow, that makes me feel old. i’m ready though. this summer has drug on and on, and i want a routine back. i want to go to class, i want to do homework, and lock myself in the library, and see people i’ve gone all summer without. hell, i might even have a job, so i’ll be busy, but i’m ok with that.
it took me nine minutes to type this up, so now, the countdown sits at two days, twenty two hours, and twenty one minutes! <33